Chapter 120: My Fragile Heart, Will It Be Shaken by Him?
Lin Yibai really wanted to slap himself twice. Why did he have to ask such a strange question?
Why would a big guy like him ask another guy: ‘How much do you like me?’
Now he had the answer. Satisfied?
Lin Yibai originally wanted to mock and scold his annoying rival loudly, ‘Oh! So this is what’s in your heart, huh? Now I see your true nature.’ But the situation was a bit awkward, so Lin Yibai just kept those words to himself.
Seeing that Xia Changyu still seemed to be in a hurry, Lin Yibai quietly took out his phone and typed a message. It was only then that he realized that because he had been distracted by the annoying guy earlier, he had accidentally sent the wrong message.
Lin Yibai typed: [I’m fine now, already back in the dorm.]
A “ding-dong” sound rang, and instantly Xia Changyu’s attention was caught.
Seeing his rival looking so relieved and happy, yet also a little worried, made Lin Yibai feel a strange mix of being touched and guilty for tricking him.
‘If I tell him that I’m actually Lin Baiyi and that I’m a guy, what would happen?’ Lin Yibai thought for a long time, but eventually decided to drop the idea.
He had a bad feeling. Once Xia Changyu knew the truth, he might go crazy. He didn’t want to see Xia Changyu so disappointed.
Lin Yibai thought, ‘Why not just let him have a good dream? It was better to leave a scar in his rival’s heart than to shatter his good dreams, right?’ So, he decided that would be the best choice.
While thinking about this, his phone started buzzing with message after message from his rival.
[Where are you?]
[How are you?]
[It’s not safe for a girl to be out alone at night. If nothing’s wrong, you should stay inside. I was really worried, scared something happened to you.]
[I’m so relieved. Now I can sleep well.]
After secretly reading the messages, Lin Yibai felt even more guilty. His heart was heavy with guilt, and he could feel the weight of it growing. His rival was standing right next to him.
Lin Yibai didn’t want to reply openly, so he just watched as his rival kept staring at his phone, waiting and waiting. It was like waiting for a long time with no answer.
Finally, Lin Yibai put his phone away and said, “Hey, you don’t need to wait anymore… she probably won’t reply to you.”
Xia Changyu replied, “You’re not her. How do you know she won’t reply?”
“!!!” That’s right. In his rival’s eyes, Lin Yibai wasn’t the girl he liked, Lin Baiyi.
Lin Yibai mumbled for a long time but couldn’t come up with a good reason. He could only mutter softly, “I just guessed… isn’t that how girls are nowadays?”
Xia Changyu countered, “But she’s different.”
Lin Yibai asked, “How is she different?”
Xia Changyu couldn’t help but scratch his head and then said, “Anyway, she’s just… well, she’s really different from other girls. She’s really a good person.”
Lin Yibai replied, “In the end, you’re just attracted to her looks, right? It’s just about your interest, I get it.”
Xia Changyu got a little impatient and quickly said, “It’s not just about that, okay?”
Lin Yibai asked, “Then what else?”
Xia Changyu’s face showed some anger and he said, “Hey, why are you being so unreasonable? I told you, she’s a different kind of girl. What else do you want from me? If you argue with me again, I won’t be nice to you.”
Lin Yibai said, “Oh really?”
Xia Changyu snorted and said, “Brother, you can say whatever you want about me… but don’t insult the girl I like, got it?”
“Is she worth it?” Lin Yibai asked.
“She’s worth it, brother.” Xia Changyu replied.
“Then what if I say she’s not worth it? What if I say that girl isn’t worth you at all?” Lin Yibai asked.
Xia Changyu shrugged and smiled, then said, “Well, I can only advise you not to say that. We’ve just met, at least don’t mock me. We should wish each other well, not throw insults.”
“But, but…” Lin Yibai pointed at the sweaty shirt on Xia Changyu, clearly showing that he had been running and was exhausted.
Lin Yibai continued, “Look at you now, all messy. And the girl you like, she… doesn’t even want to reply to any of your messages.”
Is it still worth it?
Actually, Lin Yibai could already feel that his thoughts and words were becoming less logical, like a coat with holes in it, letting the wind in.
He didn’t really know why he kept arguing and pushing his rival down, ignoring him.
Was it because… He wanted his restless, confused heart to calm down, even just a little?
So it wouldn’t be thrown off balance by seeing his rival’s actions and his strong, determined words?
Who said men have to be heartless?
Who said men would find it disgusting if another man cared for them?
Lin Yibai felt a mix of emotions. He had to admit that some of Xia Changyu’s actions and words had touched him. On the other hand, he also felt a bit of a nervous, reluctant joy.
Damn! It’s all so confusing!
Lin Yibai shook his head, his thoughts a mess.
But the two of them had already left the small grove, and Xia Changyu hadn’t replied since. It seemed like he couldn’t even respond to Lin Yibai’s comment about how the girl hadn’t messaged him back.
They exchanged some casual words and parted ways. Lin Yibai looked at his rival’s lonely figure and couldn’t help but feel a bit sorry for him.
But he still tried to stay tough, saying cruel things, ‘He’s just a big fool, he’s going to fall for a woman’s tricks one day. He’ll end up losing, humph.’
But in his actions, his heart softened a little. He took out his phone and typed:
[Do you know the big stone near the locust tree in the West Campus? I left something for you there.]
Lin Yibai was the first to go and put the item down before leaving.
Soon after, Xia Changyu returned, but this time his face wasn’t confused. He picked up a bottle of antiseptic from the stone with a happy, dancing gesture.
There was nothing special about it. It was just a bottle of antiseptic, but the feelings were stronger than the gift itself.
Lin Yibai, watching from a distance, was puzzled. He didn’t understand why Xia Changyu was so happy over a bottle of antiseptic that only cost three and a half yuan.
“Three and a half yuan, is it really that important?” Lin Yibai thought, shaking his head and walking away.
What Lin Yibai saw was just three and a half yuan. But who cares about three and a half yuan?
What Xia Changyu saw was something more meaningful, it seemed to echo something deeper.