Chapter 234: Sorry
An Han felt very bad.
If only she hadn’t turned into a woman…
While eating, she kept looking up without meaning to, taking a quick glance at the girl in front of her. But every time, she could only lower her head bitterly and shyly, trying to eat as fast as possible so the blind date could end sooner.
She really liked girls who looked and acted like Lin Yue. In her eyes, Lin Yue completely matched the “ideal wife” described by the system.
When she first saw Lin Yue, the male awareness hidden deep inside her suddenly came out again, restless. She could feel her heart’s desire and hope, and she could feel her liking for Lin Yue.
If she hadn’t turned into a woman, today’s blind date would have been perfect.
They would exchange QQ or WeChat, get each other’s phone numbers, look forward to meeting again the next day, slowly develop stronger feelings, and finally get engaged with their parents as witnesses. They would have a village wedding, and like other men, she would grow into the pillar of the family, protecting Lin Yue from all the hardships of life.
What a beautiful life that would have been.
When a man meets a girl he truly likes, most men feel this kind of impulse. She suddenly understood how Long Xing felt when he fell in love with her at first sight.
But she could only push down her feelings deep inside, hide her male awareness again in the shadows, and purposely ruin Lin Yue’s good impression of her…
An Han pressed her lips tightly together. Her thin shoulders trembled slightly.
She thought she had already gotten used to living as a woman. She thought she had already forgotten her past male self.
“What’s wrong with you?”
Lin Yue noticed that An Han’s eating movements were getting slower and saw the sadness on her face.
“N–Nothing.”
An Han lifted her head with a bright smile. “Let’s eat. After this, I’m going home to take a nap.”
She complained about her father. “I’m only twenty, but my dad forced me to come out for a blind date with you. I don’t know what he’s so anxious about. You’re probably only eighteen or nineteen, right? Why did you agree to come for a blind date?”
“Because your photo looked really good…” Lin Yue lowered her head and answered with a red face. “I like gentle boys who look like bookworms.”
“……”
An Han was stuck. She didn’t know what to say.
“Foreign guys are all big and rough. I really don’t like them.”
Then she remembered that Lin Yue was studying abroad now.
Her feelings became even more complicated, and she had no appetite. She stuffed some food into her mouth casually and was only half full.
“Let’s add each other on WeChat?”
“Huh?”
Lin Yue had already shown her phone with the QR code. “Add me. We can hang out when we both have time.”
“Well… sure, I guess?”
An Han felt the blind date had already failed, so adding her as a friend out of politeness wasn’t a problem.
“You feel a bit strange, like you’re hiding a lot of secrets,” Lin Yue said with a sweet smile as she tucked her hair behind her ear. Her curious eyes stared at An Han.
“Do I?”
“Yes!”
[Lin Yue’s affection +5]
It went up again!
An Han didn’t know whether to be happy or worried.
She pretended to stay calm, turned her body, raised her hand, and called to a nearby waiter, “Bill, please!”
She needed to run away quickly, before the tiny bit of her male self rose up again.
“I’ll pay!” Lin Yue said, already taking out her wallet.
“It’s fine, I can pay. Just scan the code, no need to wait for change. It’s easier.” While An Han scanned the QR code, she asked, “Don’t you have WeChat?”
“I don’t really use it when I’m abroad. There isn’t much money in my WeChat wallet.” Lin Yue hesitated and asked, “Should we split the bill then?”
“That’s too troublesome. My dad will reimburse me anyway.”
Lin Yue glanced at the leftover food on the table and said to the waiter who was checking out, “Hello, can I have two takeout bags?”
“Oh right, can you come with me to the bank later to deposit money? Using cash here really isn’t convenient.”
After An Han paid, she turned and saw Lin Yue looking at her with hopeful eyes. She hesitated, then nodded.
Her affection points were still too high. She needed to find a way to lower them, so Lin Yue wouldn’t keep clinging to her later.
If things got out of control, she might even have to reveal that she was actually a woman, so that Lin Yue wouldn’t fall for her and end up hurt. At that point, it wouldn’t matter if her father found out.
When they walked out of the restaurant, An Han tried hard to adjust the way she walked, pushing down all her feminine habits.
She deliberately stuck both hands in her pockets and opened up her shoulders, making herself look a little broader, trying to act cool.
“An Han! Look at this hat! Isn’t it cute?”
Lin Yue dropped all the shy behavior she had inside the restaurant. She moved through the crowd like a lively butterfly, sometimes hugging An Han’s arm and dragging her along to show things she liked.
“Relax a bit, okay? You seem really shy.” She put the hat she bought onto An Han’s head and smiled sweetly. “It looks good on you too!”
“Really? But this is a girl’s hat.”
An Han took off the wide-brimmed hat, lifted her head, and smiled with gentle sunshine.
“You look so good when you smile!”
“Usually only boys say that to me…”
Lin Yue didn’t mind at all. Her eyes curved with a clear little under-eye crease, smiling as she said, “Maybe because you’re just a tiny bit girly!”
“I think it’s kind of elegant. Yeah.”
“Do you want to go out again tomorrow? I want to check out the new Walmart! I can’t believe our small town has a Walmart now! I want to see what’s different from the ones abroad!”
“An Han! Do you want milk tea? I like cream cheese foam!”
“An Han~ look at this dress! What do you think?”
“An Han! You… you’re crying… Is walking around with me really that painful…?”
Lin Yue stopped in front of her, confused. She reached into her bag and took out a pack of tissues, handing one to An Han. “Don’t cry, okay?”
“I’m sorry…”
“Why are you saying sorry to me?”
……………………
When she got home, it was only around 1 p.m.
An Han returned with no expression. Her mother, who was washing dishes, heard the front door open and quickly turned her head to ask, “You’re back? How was the blind date?”
“It was alright.”
She put the packed leftovers in the fridge. “I spent a little over two hundred. I’ll ask Dad to reimburse me later.”
“Why do you look unhappy?”
“It’s fine. It’s just a task. Nothing to be happy or unhappy about.”
An Han hurriedly kicked off her shoes and stumbled upstairs.
Her mother, confused, asked, “Then where did your dad go?”
“No idea. I’m going to take a nap.”
On the third floor, in the bathroom, An Han carefully washed the makeup off her face. She lifted her head and looked at the pretty, delicate face in the mirror.
“She really isn’t as pretty as me.”
She muttered to herself in a daze, staring at her own face… and the rise and fall of her chest.
Her body slowly lost strength. She leaned over the sink, burying her head in her arms.
“Why me… why…”