Volume 1 Chapter 120: Contradictory and Awkward Feelings
“Sigh, Miss is always threatening people like us with words like that. Seriously...”
Sasha shook her head and sighed dramatically. Her tone was full of teasing, completely different from the crazy attitude she had before when she looked ready to fight Bai Muxue to the death.
“Just drive the car already! You talk too much!”
Bai Muxue fiercely glared at Sasha in the driver’s seat, then crossed her arms and stopped talking.
Looking at that mischievous smile on Sasha’s face, it practically looked like the words “I want to cause trouble” were written all over it!
Bai Muxue carefully glanced at Shen Jingyi sitting beside her, afraid that the girl might notice something strange.
But Shen Jingyi seemed to have no attention on Bai Muxue at all. She was quietly holding the cup of milk while blankly staring at the scenery passing outside the window.
Bright neon lights flashed on both sides of the road, covering the nearby streets in a beautiful colorful glow. Cars occasionally passed by them, while all kinds of shops stretched along the streets before slowly disappearing into the distance.
“Tch... stop nagging already. Of course I know how to drive. Hey, I can see the car next to me, okay? You don’t need to keep talking.”
As the driver, Sasha muttered complaints under her breath while Bai Muxue and Shen Jingyi quietly sat in the back seat.
The back of the luxury car was very spacious. Although the driver’s skills were honestly hard to praise, Shen Jingyi still felt somewhat dazed while sitting on the soft seat.
Originally, she had planned to go home early after finishing work tonight, but she never expected so many things to happen.
The girl unconsciously rubbed the cup sleeve again. The warmth of the milk stirred up the already restless emotions in her heart once more.
She had originally thought she was only an outsider who had been forcibly tied to Miss Bai through a contract, completely incomparable to someone like Amber, who was truly a close friend.
As for the bits of gentleness Bai Muxue occasionally showed before, Shen Jingyi had repeatedly told herself in her heart that they were nothing more than clumsy and meaningless jokes. How could a rich young lady like Bai Muxue, who had grown up with every luxury, possibly care about someone like her? It was probably just a trick often used by people in power, like a cat playing with a mouse, giving cheap hope before cruelly taking it away again, all for amusement.
How could the temporary whim of a rich young lady possibly be taken seriously?
So why did I believe it?
For some reason, Shen Jingyi suddenly remembered the manga her junior schoolmate had been reading.
Normally, she had no interest at all in things like manga or games, yet over the past two days she had somehow finished all ten or so volumes in one go.
Even Shen Jingyi herself did not know why she would read that kind of manga... the kind filled with those sorts of scenes, with images so embarrassing that she often needed to pause and calm herself before continuing.
Maybe... it really was because the main character in the manga resembled Bai Muxue.
—Under that arrogant and overbearing shell was actually a soft and kind heart.
During the short time they had spent together, Bai Muxue had been nowhere near as violent as the rumors claimed. She had never truly forced herself on Shen Jingyi either. At most, she only took a few small advantages now and then...
But so what?
Maybe Miss Bai really was gentle in private, but what did that gentleness have to do with an outsider like her?
And yet... no matter how hard Shen Jingyi tried to convince herself otherwise, she still could not forget...
The image of Bai Muxue rushing forward to save her that day on the rooftop.
And the sweet taste of the lollipop she had placed into her mouth.
That was why she panicked earlier when she saw Heidi taking Miss Bai hostage, right?
And that was why she felt upset earlier when she saw Amber and Bai Muxue joking around together, right?
Shen Jingyi did not know what kind of image she had in Bai Muxue’s mind, but it was probably ridiculous and laughable, right?
She was clearly just... an outsider. What right did she have to make comments here, or even secretly mock someone else’s friend?
‘You really look pathetic, Shen Jingyi. This version of you is truly ugly.’
‘Where did the Shen Jingyi who left the Shen family with her mother and swore to live well on her own go?’
Shen Jingyi could not help questioning herself in her heart.
She felt both contradictory and awkward.
Clearly, she wanted nothing more than to stay far away from the troublemaking Miss Bai. Clearly, she kept telling herself that whatever Miss Bai did had absolutely nothing to do with her...
And yet...
She still unconsciously cared about Bai Muxue’s feelings.
Just like yesterday at the mental hospital, when she saw Bai Muxue’s medical report, a painful feeling suddenly rose in her heart.
Perhaps... it was exactly because her mind was more fragile and hurt more deeply than anyone else’s that she behaved in such strange ways?
A faint fragrance filled the inside of the car, probably some special perfume. Wrapped in the soft seat, Shen Jingyi gradually relaxed.
This feeling was honestly very strange to her. Whenever she stayed beside Miss Bai, she was always tense and alert, ready to deal with sudden teasing or trouble at any moment.
But now, it felt as if a bottomless abyss had suddenly gained an exit. Or like a noisy toy that had finally been switched off.
Smelling the faint scent of sandalwood, Shen Jingyi quietly relaxed.
She unconsciously raised her eyes. Sitting beside her, Bai Muxue lazily leaned against the seat, her slender pale legs lightly crossed while casually scrolling through her phone. Her posture looked lazy yet elegant, like a soft and relaxed cat.
A soft mechanical sound rang out as the car window opened. Night wind suddenly rushed into the car, directly hitting the girl with a strong gust. Bai Muxue let out a small sound of surprise before quickly closing the window again.
Even though the two girls sat very close together, Bai Muxue did not touch her at all during the ride. She did not even start a conversation. Instead, she simply kept playing with the car window controls using her slender fingers.
Open, close, open...
The occasional night wind blowing into the car made Shen Jingyi glance sideways at her several times. She truly could not understand what was so fun about this. Even a three-year-old child probably would not play such a boring game.
Her gaze stayed on Bai Muxue’s pretty face for a moment before quickly moving away again.
But Bai Muxue seemed to notice the look from the person beside her. First, she slowly moved her hand away from the controls, then lazily stretched her body, immediately revealing the graceful curves of her slim figure.
“Ah, I’m so sleepy, so sleepy. I’m going to lie down for a bit.”
Then, together with a light laugh, Bai Muxue directly leaned sideways onto Shen Jingyi. Her head rested against the girl’s long and smooth thighs as she comfortably laid down against her.
Bai Muxue’s sudden action shocked Shen Jingyi so much that her soft body instantly stiffened. She subconsciously raised her hand, wanting to push the girl away.
But how could Bai Muxue possibly let her succeed? Turning her face slightly to the side, she rubbed her forehead and muttered,
“No good... I used too much energy earlier. I need to recharge a little.”
Mhm, in a certain sense, that statement really was true.