Volume 4 Chapter 58: Can Love Stop Going in Circles?
Gao Liang came to the convention to meet a friend…
But who is that friend?
Lin Lin lowered her head. Her heart suddenly felt heavy.
It shouldn’t matter who Gao Liang meets. It has nothing to do with her.
Before she found out that Yi Xiao was also at the event, she didn’t think too much about it. She just thought maybe Gao Liang was meeting some old friend.
But…
What if that old friend is Yi Xiao?
That thought was hard for her to accept.
Her heart felt sour. And when she remembered what Yi Xiao had said to her before…
After all… they were childhood friends.
So what am I to Gao Liang?
She is nothing special.
She has no right to control anything.
And yet, because of him, she now has so many troubles.
Of course…
He has helped her solve many problems before.
The girl sighed. The uncomfortable feeling in her heart still didn’t go away. But someone outside the curtain was already calling them to hurry up.
Soon, Lin Lin heard Gao Ye open the curtain and walk out. She sighed again and stepped out of the dressing room as well.
“Okay~ everyone is here. Let’s start today’s rehearsal! Today we’ll mainly practice dancing. For the talking part during breaks, just speak freely. We don’t have a script~”
“Everything about streamers is real, hehe~”
Gao Ye joked from the side. Everyone was looking forward to the rehearsal. Only Lin Lin looked calm.
But actually, she was just lost in thought, still wondering if Gao Liang came to see Yi Xiao.
“We’re starting! Let’s dance song by song in order!”
As the three of them stood together to test their 3D models, the staff below the stage finished their preparations. Du Wenmei took a deep breath, nodded, and told the other two to stand in their positions.
Lin Lin and Gao Ye were about the same height. Du Wenmei was much taller than them, which made the positions a bit difficult to arrange.
No matter who stood in the middle, it looked a little strange. In the end, Sister Wenmei decided to adjust her own position. But then it felt like Lin Lin and Gao Ye didn’t stand out enough.
After moving around a little, Du Wenmei stepped slightly backward. Finally, it looked better.
“Xiao Lin, don’t just stand there. Go to your position. We’re starting!”
“Oh, okay.”
Lin Lin came back to her senses and quickly went to her spot.
The staff played the background music.
As the song started, Lin Lin began to move her body, almost like a machine.
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“Se no (ready)”
Is Gao Liang really meeting Yi Xiao?
“Demo sonnan ja dame (But that’s not okay)”
But… they will probably make up one day, right?
After all… what big problem could they really have?
There’s no conflict that cannot be solved, right?
Just like how she feels about Gao Liang…
“Mou sonnan ja hora (If it’s really like that, look)”
If that day really comes…
If those childhood friends make up…
How awkward would she feel standing between them?
Yi Xiao would probably dislike her, right?
“Kokoro wa shinkasuru yo motto motto (The heart keeps growing, more and more)”
When facing a childhood friend he got back after losing…
And a new friend he only met a few months ago…
Who would he choose?
“Ko to ba ni sureba kiechau kankei nara (If saying it out loud would make the relationship disappear)”
But in the end… why do I even care about this?
“Ko to ba wo keseba ii yatte (Then just don’t say it)”
Why do I secretly hope that Gao Liang and his childhood friend will continue to stay apart?
Why am I thinking such selfish thoughts?
“Omotteta osoreteta (I thought that before, and I was afraid of it too)”
Even if one day Gao Liang becomes distant from me again…
It would only mean going back to the past.
That normal, ordinary past.
“Dakedo are? Nanka chigau kamo (But… maybe I’m mistaken about something)”
I…
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“Kamisama arigatou unmei no itazura demo (God, thank you, even if this is a trick of fate)”
“Meguriaeta koto ga shiawase nano (Meeting him makes me feel happy)”
“Demo sonnan ja dame (But that’s not okay)”
“Mou sonnan ja hora (If it’s like that, look)”
“Kokoro wa shinkasuru yo motto motto (The heart keeps growing more and more)”
I just hate seeing Gao Liang connected with other girls!
Even though… even though he is my rival!
The rival I personally decided on!
He is my rival, not someone else’s childhood friend!
I only know a little about his past.
But his future…
I want to know much, much more.
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“Watashi no koto mitete ne zutto zutto (Please keep looking at me, forever)”
“Watashi no naka no anata hodo (Compared to how you are in my heart)”
“Anata no naka no watashi no sonzai wa (What is my place in your heart?)”
Maybe…
Maybe I just don’t feel secure.
What role am I in his life?
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“Koisuru kisetsu wa yokubari circulation (The season of love keeps going in a greedy circle)”
I don’t care about those strange thoughts anymore!
The song ended.
But in Lin Lin’s mind, scenes of the time she spent with Gao Liang kept appearing again and again.
After a long moment, the music stopped completely. Lin Lin lowered her head and stayed silent.
Then she suddenly came back to her senses.
She… she had been distracted.
“Ah, Xiao Lin, you made quite a few mistakes. In the second half, you were completely off the rhythm. Focus more~”
Sister Wenmei looked at the recording and turned to speak to her a little awkwardly.
Lin Lin lowered her head and said softly,
“Sorry… I was distracted.”
“Let’s take a break. At least the model and technical side are fine.”
Gao Ye noticed that something was wrong with Lin Lin. After saying that, she quietly walked over to her.
She thought Lin Lin was feeling stressed because of Yi Xiao causing trouble.
Gao Ye gently patted Lin Lin’s shoulder and helped her sit down on the chair near the wall of the live room to rest.
After a while, Sister Wenmei also noticed something was wrong. She walked over and looked at Lin Lin, whose eyes were still a little wet.
She didn’t know what to say and could only comfort her awkwardly.
“Xiao Lin, what’s wrong? It’s… it’s okay. You actually did really well just now! Really!”
Lin Lin raised her head. Before she could say anything—
“The performance is about to start! Please adjust your condition as soon as possible!”
A staff member suddenly shouted.
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The song:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uKxyLmbOc0Q&list=RDuKxyLmbOc0Q&start_radio=1